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Storms in consciousness 2020 and beyond

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It was middle of the 2019, any trip taken would be accompanied by the storm and, thunder and lightning, I remember swiming in the Baltic sea during the storm, and life guards told me off and said ‘you have to get out, it is a red flag’. The thunder was wonderful, sea was wavy…It’s powerful cinematic memory, incredably humbling, the contrast between dark water and flashes of lightning…beaches usually packed with people although weather made beach empty…

…and then 2020 came over, I went to Orkney islands in Scotland, on the New Years, Hogmanay, and it was a storm, but of cource…seeing ring of Brodgar, the ancient stone circle, it’s like stepping back in time…

After the storm, perfect stillnes started and I could meditate and experience the stillness.

…we all know what happened that year, 2020…

…I went to buy my first smart phone that year, I didn’t have smart phone before then…

…I bought a smart phone when lockdownds happened…

…since then life became like a crazy movie…you couldn’t make that stuff up…

…and then storm after storm, after storm…

It’s 2025, the end of it…

The water element got crazy the storms and rain are everywhere, floods…it’s crazy…

Last year we had 111 mph winds…

Water element is connected to human emotions…human consciousness is effecting the water element…

Human emotions are very unstable and there are a lot of negativity from human consciousness…the distruction times, when worlds have been destroid…so, apocaliptical “stuff” happens in their reality…

…the reality is only good for the experienced consciousness surfers and profesional divers…

…you are here for a crazy ride…

Sometimes dream about this universal turtle that balances the waters of reality.

You have to become that turtle and balance your water element.

Medusa Feminin Power

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Medusa is known as Greek mythological creature. She was turned into monstrosity by goddess Athena. Before that medusa was the priestess and God Poseidon violated her in Athena’s temple. Medusa was one of the priestess that had to stay virgin all her life.

In wrath Athena turned Medusa into monstosity, her hair turned into snakes and anyone who looked at Medusa turned to stone.

So, she was turned into monstrosity because she was violated…

Was it a curse or a blessing?

Medusas apearance from beautiful maiden into monstrosity isolated her from society.

She lived in secluded environment, she lived in isolation, and didn’t bother others.

Hermit life in the cave. Cave reality, isolation from outside world and other beings. It’s like Budghist Mahasiddha Lakshminkara who ran away from mariage and social life and she lived in the cave and created her own world in the cave. Medusa was sort of demigod chimera creature and Lakshminakara was human. Altough in those days cave reality was the only option avalable who didn’t want to be pushed and pulled by society. Did times changed…?…much…

Although a lot of “heros” went to kill Medusa and they all turned to stone. Anyone who looked at her turned to stone.

Perseus was ordered to bring Medusas head, he killed her and cut her head when Medusa slept. Out of Medusas head came out Pegasus and Chrysaor, two of her children who were Poseidons kids also demigods, chimeras.

Interesting Medusa never aproached people, she avoided them, so who was bad here…?

Why so many men went to kill her?

Medusas story is very peculiar, mythical maybe misinterpreted, mistranslated and confused in time…it’s hard to understand for the human mind…although it’s clear, it’s all about female power…and who wants to own it…?

You know Versace logo, it’s Medusas head, suraunded by Greek key. That is the symbol of seduction and female power. The models that Versace chose definetley were godesses in previous life…

…Medusas face also used by rape victims, it is a tatoo, it’s the symbol of the survivors of sexual violance. This is the symbol of reclaiming their power, representing strenght, she is not a victim she stands in her power, she is the survivor.

The picture above is museum in Istambul. The statue is Medusa sitting.

The statue of Medusa, and there are Medusa faces on the colomns in the museum, to ward off evil spirits, the other version Medusas heads were brought from other city as spoils of war…

The place use to be water reservoir, it’s been built in 6th century.

Istumbul use to be Constatinople, in Byzantine empire.

During 6000 years of patriarchy woman attached a lot of meaning and power to their sexuality and looks. Apearance played vital role for survival.

In Medusas case change of apearance was a defence mechanism.

Female is the power in general, although were and for what that power is used?

Who is using that power?

Maybe woman is possessed?

Maybe Divinity uses that power, or woman is a vessel for the Divine power.

Don’t let any evil force use your power as a weapon.

White magical creatures

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White beings have special meaning in different cultures. White creatures transcend the ordinary, acting as guardians, messengers, and embodiments of cosmic balance and harmony.

White color is untainted by mental modifications, the world, reality.

White beings may create serenity field.

In the picture above me meeting white peacock. Interesting encounter. When peacock walked away, it flew up the tree to see it’s friend in the tree. I looked up to see other peacock and little white feather fell of the peacock, straight into my hand, of cource I kept the feather…

That felt like blessing from nature. I just been handed a token of grace, a wee magical token, to carry around and remember the magical moment.

It’s not just a feather it’s a story in my treasure chest.

White colour produces all colours although it’s untainted by all…

Bring light ✨️ worlds into reality ✨️

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This reality is still playing the light and evil games.

There are worlds next to this reality that don’t have evil there, beings who live there refused to play with evil.

There are a lot of myths and legends about these worlds some call it Shambala, Inner earth, Hiperborea ( beyond Boreas ), Lemuria, El dorado…

There are so many myths and legends about these realities. Like when warmongers wanted to colonise this ‘nice world’ and when army turn up at the place, reality or world dissappears because they don’t want to play war games. Yes, you can disagree to play certain games. If you see life as a game. You may choose then.

Some myths and legends talk about person walking into 🧚‍♀️ fairie world and when person comes back to earthy reality after few weeks. Everyone turns out looking aged. Person from fairie world stays youthful although staying in earthly world become impossible.

I have quite few experiences with light realities and then you back into physical and there are no light food or light clothes, sort of perfection gone.

People may see these realities in their dreams and they might remember although they would think it’s just a dream…

Light worlds would be hiden somewhere in the mountains or waters, so it would be no access to not prepared person.

Even the heavenly realms have their guardians that don’t allow people after death if they have fear energies in them.

Since 2012 more light became available in this reality. With every year more and more light ✨️ becomes available and it’s only going to increase.

Humans are creator creatures and they bring stuff into reality.

I like light worlds it’s interesting to bring light worlds into existence in earthly reality. Would be very interesting a lot of light beings bringing light realities into physical. Light manifesting in to physical.

Above is the picture taken few years ago when I was travelling to India. This looks like perfect light codes.

Also the rainbow 🌈 above felt very interesting and unusual. Looked like a doorway.

Portal… time, space…999

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Once upon a time at Santa Barbara castle…

…I told you a ‘thing’ you just didn’t understand, you don’t have a ‘thing’ with what you can understand. When you will understand this won’t be you…

Is time linear?

A point from A to B, like geometric vector.

In ancient time of NOW…

Time is consciousness, time is art…

Calendar plays in human body…human body as a calendar…

Sound, vibration in human body, it’s a music…calendar is a music…

Time plays through you…fractal waves…

Just walked past street and numbers where 69, 69…and then it’s 3, 6, 9…

The trees 🌳, big trees and there is portal in the trees…

The name says portal, and so, it is…

Walking through portals on the planets time and space…

You are the portal, that life is expressing…

What you want to express ✨️

Making portal for magic 🎩 ✨️ 💛 💖 and miracles ✨️, high vibration and so it is.

Ornithology and the sense of awe

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If someone would tell me thirteen years ago, I’m going to love bird watching, I’d say they are crazy, and bird watching is boring.

Well, things changed, when I moved to Edinburgh I started meditating in one place, that had lots of birds: ducks, geese, swans. One day birds became like pets or friends, maybe even like family members.

At some point swans started to recognise me they would come over and sit with me. So, day by day, swans became my meditation companions.

I saved few of their swan babies when they got stuck in the rocks. Sometimes I would bring food to swans. So, time passed and I started liking all birds.

I had this hawk living above my bedroom window and it visited me, nearly every day.

On my daily walks I would notice different birds each bird evokes this sense of awe, especially if it is rare bird like kingfisher.

Each bird has it’s own personality, individuality. Birds are very intelligent, maybe even more intelligent than cats and dogs.

Once I saw pictures of kingfisher on the internet, I really wanted to see that bird in a wild. So, first time I saw it I didn’t realise it was so small and the colour is so bright, blue electric, and it moves so, fast. People offten miss it because it’s fast and small. Kingfisher it’s magical bird, it seems it came from some other dimension maybe fairyland.

So, it happens I seen many times, birds knocking on the windows they are like little messengers and part of synchronicity. Messenger send from higher worlds.

I sit in a park, while I write this post, surrounded by variety of birds, of course. This pigeon, is sitting on a bench with me and it becomes my friend, for a wee while.

Birds make different sounds sometimes it seems nice, sometimes annoying, sometimes soothing. And I have two live alarm clocks that knock on my window every morning, when the sun rises. So, I go to bed when sun sets and rise with sun rises, just like birds. Birds watch after my wellbeing, little feathered guards.

Perfect Moment, Shine Bright

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fierworks

The smell of cold air and fallen leaves,

The smell of frankincense  and burning candle…

The Christmas lights shine bright, shine bright

The fireworks in the air shine bright, shine bright.

The lights inside shine brighter, shine brighter,

It shines brighter than any other outside lights.

The inner lights overwhelmingly awesome.

Nothing outside compares to inside lights.

Meditate, connect to inner light

Then the outer lights shine brighter,

You go with the Divine flow,

In time of no time,

In the Divine plan, without the plan…

 

OM

 

 

 

 

Tomorrow doesn’t exist

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Autumn, wonderful time of the year, colourful and so soothing, the air is so crisp and fresh. Autumn also known as fall…leaves fall…it seems that nature is dying, well it is not dying, it is changing.

One autumn evening I decided to go and see my friends, swan family that lives in the pond not far away from my home. So I went… When I approached the pond only one swan was there, that was very strange and unusual. I walked around the pond and expected to find second swan although my search was unsuccessful. The only swan that left in the pond was male swan, I looked at him and in my mind asked him; what happened? The answer was go to your meditation place, so I went. Before approaching meditation place there was this feeling that I’ll find black feathers there. When I got to my meditation place, there were at least three black feathers, this is not a good omen. I got overwhelmed with sadness.The other thought that came through my mind was go home and you will find an article on what happened, so I did. The article was rather cold, yeah but what else you can expect from news paper article. It seems that the female swan just disappeared, people who look after the place suspect that it was fox, fox ate the swan. Maybe it was a fox; who knows…

The couple lived together sixteen years, one of them left the body, the other continues exist as a male swan.

Yes, the soul is immortal whether animal or human although body is fragile and it can cease to exist in any moment. Even if you try to cling to the moment it passes by, you desperately try to grasp it but it transforms into something else, sands of time continue to flow and change.

Cherish your embodiment, it is a temple treat it well. If you are postponing things and think you can do things tomorrow, tomorrow might never come for the embodiment. I’m not trying to instil fear, just want to bring awareness, the individuation or the mandala of the embodiment transforms constantly and sometimes it comes to a point when it drops its whole form, structure. Whatever you do right now do it with full awareness. Even if you just drink water or go for a walk make it special because it is special if you put whole attention and awareness into it. If you want to clear your mind go for a walk, clarity of the mind brings you into awareness and you can enjoy the now. Try to do mundane things like; eating, walking with full awareness and see how they become magical.

In my mind I still have a memory of the perfect summer day and magical moment when Sally the swan was still in her embodiment and was swimming in the pond with her cygnets and they were enjoying the perfect moments together and brought joy to people. Animals are good example how to stay in the moment and make the most of it. Be aware notice things around you.

Sally with cygnets 🙂

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Forbidden Feeling Love

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Snow queen in her ice castle, everything is frozen because of the rigid heart, love is forbidden in the kingdom, love is considered feeling of the weak commoners and those who lack in ambition. Love is a crime that is punishable by death. How can heartless queen get rid of her greatest enemy? Kill it, kill love. Snow queen believes that love made her weak, made her suffer and caused pain, the pain was unbearable, so even word love is forbidden in her kingdom. She desperately tries to run away from the pain, she thinks that she is strong, she had built huge walls around her castle, so her enemy, love couldn’t get in. She always thought that love was her enemy and she stayed behind the walls of the ice castle.

After many years of suffering she realised that enemy wasn’t love, in fact, she was lied to and she bought a lie. As they say; it is better to realise later than never. Now she knows that the only thing she was afraid of is to loose love, she was afraid to loose a feeling that was so comforting and warm and she was afraid of isolation and coldness. As ironic as it may sound, she became that which she was afraid of. She used her own will to isolate herself from love. Now she is aware that she bought a lie, she sees her enemy, she knows that enemy sold her a lie, because it can’t feel love the enemy can’t feed on love, it only feeds on fear. The enemy sold a lie to the queen that she should be afraid, very afraid she should isolate and live in her ice castle and she should fight love.

While queen lived in her ice castle she was perfect food for the enemy, although one day she shined a light on the lie and she saw it for what it was, it was a lie. The spell have been broken, warm spring came to the kingdom and ice walls started to melt, love melted ice and frost, life engulfed the castle. When the queen smells roses in her garden, that smell like apples, and drinks morning tea she invites the enemy to smell the roses. For some reason enemy seems puzzled it doesn’t understand humour and for some reason it doesn’t like the smell of roses. Some say the smell of roses is an angel and it threatens demons. Probably angels and demons don’t mix  together.

Queen is aware of the enemy she knows, the enemy wants her to be afraid, very afraid and it tries again and again to sell lies to the queen although queen says NO to an enemy. She knows the enemy well the enemy is a trickster, it likes fear because he only knows fear it doesn’t know what love is. Love is very foreign to the enemy. The enemy tries to create as much fear as it can so other snow queens and kings would be a perfect food source and it tells lies that love is bad, love hurts. The enemy is a master salesman it convinces many souls to buy fear, so they would create food and reality for the enemy.

If you think that love hurts that is a lie. Fear hurts. When fear invades your being love becomes tainted. Pure love heals and nourishes. When your heart is rigid you can’t be fluid and life force inside is frozen, you can’t move freely.

© Laura Ciciskinaite

Freedom

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This world is endless maze there are so many of those who try to catch your attention or try to sell you something; a thing or a lifestyle…Do you buy everything that is on offer?What do you buy? Why do you buy it?

So, when I have googled freedom, first thing that came up was makeup brand…well you could say makeup would give you freedom, I wonder how exactly makeup gives you freedom. So, draw your face and you will become free?

There are many of those who are going to sell you lifestyle, that supposedly will give you freedom. You can choose a lifestyle, there are many choices out there or you can create your own lifestyle or brand.

Yes, you can buy into ‘Sex and the City’ lifestyle but if you are going to sleep with whole pond of frogs will you find prince charming and who said that prince is going to be loving, caring…,well charming they said, he is going to be, just charming and charming he is, nothing more, nothing less.Well, you might meet princes Rose and she will turn into evil witch…oh, those deceiving appearances. You were looking for soul mate but you found a cell mate…Who sold you idea of DA ONLY ONE soul mate? How do you know that it is true?

You can buy into ‘Family Guy’ lifestyle. They even have joke about average family in the USA,husband and wife, two and a half kids and golden retriever. You can choose life/family model were ‘daddy is rich and mama is good looking’.

You can buy into exercise freak lifestyle and yes exercise may become an addiction, it is not worst addiction, but still.

Few years ago people use to have an idea how business person should look like, straight male in his 40’s wearing a suit and a tie, there are still people who believe this idea. I heard this story when 19 year old businessman wearing t shirt and  sneakers went to the bank and in the bank there was this note business clients don’t need to queue, so he approached bank person without the queue, of course he was told off, when he said that he is a business client. When bank person realised that young guy was really  business client, that was a bit of a shock. People still have stereotypes and label people. People have an idea how business person should look like.

Some people say that there are people who buy into gay lifestyle, even if they are not gay, they just choose a lifestyle because it is trendy or they want to fit in, into industry they work in for example fashion industry or show business.

Being ‘spiritual’ it is also a trend, a lifestyle choice. If you think that you can sit in cross legged pose, you think it means you know how to meditate, cross legged position is not indicator of meditation. Spacing out is not meditation and daydreaming is not meditation.If you are psychic you think you are spiritual, not necessarily. Sometimes it seems non spiritual people are more spiritual than those who claim they are spiritual.

You can be a monopoly guy or a downshifter choice is there, you can choose. It doesn’t matter what you do or don’t do what matters is.Why you are doing it? Does it make you more or less free? Do you want to be free? Freedom is also synonyms to word responsibility. The problem is that a lot of people on this planet still don’t know how to be their own authority, this is because they never been taught how to be free and response able. Free person is dangerous to the system  because he/she won’t obey blindly.

Be aware, system knows that you will try to escape the reality that you don’t like, so they created ‘sex, drugs, rock and roll’, basically indulging and addiction trap or you may say instant gratification. It seems a lot of generations fall the same way, overindulge in simple pleasures of life. They get sucked in the INSTANT GRATIFICATION trap, a spoiled brat mentality.

There were and there are a lot of social movements that fight for freedom a lot of the movements start with good intentions, unfortunately a lot of the movements get hijacked by dark forces and stray away from their initial motives. Be aware of fake people.

This planet is a maze enjoy while you are on it but don’t forget that it is a trap, very entertaining, but still a trap.Learn mindfulness, awareness and responsibility these words are synonymous to freedom.

If you want to regain your freedom learn mental emotional processing, also learn how to meditate, learn be mindful and aware, learn how to be in the now. I know it is difficult to learn and apply  all these things because we have been taught quite the opposite, basically how not to live our lives.People are unaware of the mental, emotional bodies.It is a common knowledge that thought create reality. Do you know where thoughts come from? Do you think all thoughts that go through your mind are yours? Why do you choose certain lifestyle model? Why do you do what you do? What is your motivation? Get to know your mind and you will be able to answer these questions.

One of the biggest fears humans have is fear of loss, afraid to loose something or someone, fear of death, loss of the physical body.You may come to a point in your life, this life or next life when you realise that you have nothing to loose because you don’t own anything or anyone, you may  borrow something but eventually you have to return it…Some say that freedom is when you have nothing left to loose.

Finally, one of my favourite Zen koans;’Be in the world but not of it’.

© Laura Ciciskinaite