Divine Betrayal

Divine Betrayal 2

Perfect boy who was a master artist he created art, the art was magnificent. Boy created art for his master, boy didn’t know but he was a slave, he served evil master. Evil master gave him watch, very expensive watch, boy was very proud of the watch, the watch was status symbol, he was very proud that he earned the status. Watch was made of gold and encrusted with precious jewels, everybody noticed the watch and saw boy as special and important because he had the watch. Boy was very proud, his ego grew by a minute. The boy thought he is invincible he played the domination and control game, he also  liked abuse of power game, he loved the sense of superiority and he looked down on others as if others were inferior. Boy worshiped his master and he thought that slave master was everything in his life. All of his life force, energy and time he invested in creating art for his enslaver. The slave master was a God and daddy figure for the boy. Boy wanted to please his master and he did everything to climb up the ladder of success. The evil master invented ladder of success, so he could use boys creativity to create world for himself.

Boy use to love a girl, their love was so innocent and pure although one day boy decided that girl is an obstacle, the only think that he wanted to do is to serve the slave master and make art for him, that became his whole life, creating for the slave master. Boy decided to banish the girl from his life, he thought that she was an obstacle, an obstacle for his creation. He betrayed her and sold her to other boys so  they could do anything they liked with the girl. Abandonment and betrayal as bad as they were in it self, for the boy it wasn’t enough, he decided to humiliate the girl and make her suffer…Evil stole his heart and clouded his mind, he couldn’t see clearly  he was a master artist, creator for the evil slave master.

The girl endured horrendous pain in the hands of other boys although she survived, she continued to live.The girl was afraid that she is going to be betrayed buy others again. She was betrayed, she also betrayed others because she thought that is the game she should play, the game of betrayal.

The worst fear was that she was betrayed by the Divine. How come boy got entrenched in materialistic world and forgot his Divine nature? How come Divine let boy betray the girl? If God created love why it created betrayal? If God created everything why it created evil? Girl was betrayed so many times and she betrayed others, she got use to pain, you may say  it was a masochistic addiction, expecting pain and betrayal. She expected pain and betrayal from every relationship, it seemed mandatory to her. Is it mandatory? Maybe there are other games? Maybe it is time to drop betrayal game because it is a bit boring to play the same game over and over again. Time to write new story and invent new games.



© Laura Ciciskinaite


Transience Wabi-Sabi


First thing that comes in mind thinking about transience,Buddhist monks in their perfect ochre robes making a colourful sand mandala. It takes long time to make it, soon after it is made it is destroyed. Creation and destruction…Sand mandalas are representation of transient material life.

Creation and destruction of mandala is highly ceremonial.

I like to create my ‘sand’ mandalas not really from sand. One was created out of sea shells, very tiny sea shells…nobody can put a price tag on creation like that and now it only ‘exists‘ as photo image…

One day I have left message in the sand made of sea rocks. Of course the message no longer exist in material form, it was washed away by sea waves, hopefully somebody got the message…


Sea also makes wonderful drawings. Pictures are so perfect…


Drawings disappear after few hours. Sea water washes pictures away…


The next day new pictures are created…different pictures.


Everything is in constant change, well if things would stay the same that would be boring.

There is this saying; ‘The more things change the more they stay the same.’ Constant and change are different sides of the same coin.

Some people say, ‘oh those lifetimes in Lemuria and Atlantis were so much nicer better and now life is so grey’. Remember the lives in Egypt they were so cool I was trying to grasp on those moments, those lifetimes although they slipped through my fingers like sand…

Yes, that might be true. As they say, ‘all good things come to the end’, yeah, but they forgot to say that bad things come to the end too.

My sea shells turn into sand and maybe one day somebody is going to make colourful sand mandala out of that sand.


Make your own own ‘sand’ mandala every day, every moment, choose colours and ingredients that are best for you and makes you joyful. Enjoy things while they last and don’t be afraid to let go when it is time to do so…

© Laura Ciciskinaite

Moment masterpiece

Flower Fierworks
Every moment is art. Every moment of your life is art. Creation happens every moment of your life…right now…it happens.When you read this post these words…

You express yourself you read, I write…

The next moment you will go and do something else…you are choosing what you are going to do…free will in self expression…

How do you feel when you do something? Do you ask yourself this question?

They say its not what you do, but who you are…What are you this moment? How do you feel?What defines you?Have you ever asked yourself these questions?

Right now when I write to dogs play in the park…They are so different physically and energetically…One is so happy playing, he seems sooo innocent, the other one seems very unstable something is bothering him, he is angry…the second dog probably was adopted and previous owners abused him, he seems ‘broken’. He gets attention by doing something bad. The first dog is Labrador and the second seems like Rottweiler cross, probably bred for fighting. Labradors suppose to be good and Rottweilers suppose to be bad, isn’t it ironic?Two dogs have the same owner.

The third dog walks in the park and Labrador approaches him. Of course, Labrador is so nice and friendly, and innocent to a third dog and they about to play…Rottweiler approaches the scene and he is aggressive, he wants to do something bad, probably attack third dog. The owner was fast enough to stop it. If that Rottweiler would be human, psychotherapy, emotional processing, shadow work would be a good advice…

Next day I was walking in the park and noticed lots of feathers scattered around, not far away there was a dead pigeon. Most likely the dog killed it, because there are no wild predators in that park. You could still feel terror, aggression and destruction in that place.

Some beings create joy, happiness and others create terror, anger aggression. States of mind that you create, you live in them. If you intentionally create misery for others you live in that state of mind. Why? Because you put a lot of focus on that state of mind, where your focus goes your energy flows. If you intentionally create joy for others you create joy for yourself, because you focus on joy. That’s why the best revenge is joy.

I was observing other creatures in the park there were many birds enjoying their day.

A baby seagull was resting, a squirrel was enjoying an acorn.DSC_0824DSC_0983

You create your own reality and reality creates you all the time. You do this consciously or unconsciously. The best way to create is be conscious and aware what you create and with who you create.

I found this quote somewhere.’Art is how we decorate space. Music is how we decorate time.’ Unknown

The picture at the top called flower fireworks. I didn’t draw since school but one day I took pencils and couldn’t stop…

© Laura Ciciskinaite

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