Perfect boy who was a master artist he created art, the art was magnificent. Boy created art for his master, boy didn’t know but he was a slave, he served evil master. Evil master gave him watch, very expensive watch, boy was very proud of the watch, the watch was status symbol, he was very proud that he earned the status. Watch was made of gold and encrusted with precious jewels, everybody noticed the watch and saw boy as special and important because he had the watch. Boy was very proud, his ego grew by a minute. The boy thought he is invincible he played the domination and control game, he also liked abuse of power game, he loved the sense of superiority and he looked down on others as if others were inferior. Boy worshiped his master and he thought that slave master was everything in his life. All of his life force, energy and time he invested in creating art for his enslaver. The slave master was a God and daddy figure for the boy. Boy wanted to please his master and he did everything to climb up the ladder of success. The evil master invented ladder of success, so he could use boys creativity to create world for himself.
Boy use to love a girl, their love was so innocent and pure although one day boy decided that girl is an obstacle, the only think that he wanted to do is to serve the slave master and make art for him, that became his whole life, creating for the slave master. Boy decided to banish the girl from his life, he thought that she was an obstacle, an obstacle for his creation. He betrayed her and sold her to other boys so they could do anything they liked with the girl. Abandonment and betrayal as bad as they were in it self, for the boy it wasn’t enough, he decided to humiliate the girl and make her suffer…Evil stole his heart and clouded his mind, he couldn’t see clearly he was a master artist, creator for the evil slave master.
The girl endured horrendous pain in the hands of other boys although she survived, she continued to live.The girl was afraid that she is going to be betrayed buy others again. She was betrayed, she also betrayed others because she thought that is the game she should play, the game of betrayal.
The worst fear was that she was betrayed by the Divine. How come boy got entrenched in materialistic world and forgot his Divine nature? How come Divine let boy betray the girl? If God created love why it created betrayal? If God created everything why it created evil? Girl was betrayed so many times and she betrayed others, she got use to pain, you may say it was a masochistic addiction, expecting pain and betrayal. She expected pain and betrayal from every relationship, it seemed mandatory to her. Is it mandatory? Maybe there are other games? Maybe it is time to drop betrayal game because it is a bit boring to play the same game over and over again. Time to write new story and invent new games.
I’M SORRY, FORGIVE ME, I LOVE YOU
© Laura Ciciskinaite