Personified Divinity Messiah Game


Are you having a dilemma what is Divinity?

Does it have a form? Is it formless?

May God become a man?

Do you want to be saved?

Are you being a saviour yourself and play the Messiah game?

Sometimes you feel that there is no help and you fall into despair and helplessness moments and it seems soo dark. The other times you try to save everyone even those who don’t want to be saved, or maybe you will build the whole universe so you may save others.

So, is there any help for the human?

Yes, there is although will you be able to see and recognise the help?

Are you aware and conscious enough to see and hear the Divine?

Divine usually speaks very quietly and it shows itself in many forms, it doesn’t like repetition. Well, it is formless although it takes form. What kind of form? All forms and no form. You may say if God created everything than who created the Devil? You may say the Devil is a Gods beast, the beast which is on the leash and it is allowed to do only the certain amount of havoc. The Devil also may take many shapes and forms it may take God like forms as well, only it spreads suffering, misery, lack, chaos, destruction although it may come in very glamorous form you may think it is good.

‘We can accept God becoming Man to save Man, but not Man becoming God to save himself.’ Vernon Linwood Howard

A lot of humans on this planet want their personal messiah, so somebody would hear them, listen to them, care for them. Hero who would save them from them selves, a hero who would bring salvation. Religions always promise salvation and they say that golden age was in the past and you have to wait for the messiah who will save you in the future. Politicians promise you the great tomorrow , yeah they may give you some treats. The great demagogues always play with your emotions and say that something good was in the past or will happen in the future and they will put this hero in front of the people, so it could be worshipped, like the sun in the morning and it may look bright and significant also it blinds others. People personify Divinity, so they may place their focus somewhere, somewhere positive, just to manage their focus.It is neither good nor bad to have personified Divinity in your life, only at some point you have to drop it or leave  it. At some point you have to leave your guru and become independent. Guru is only a guide it can’t do things for you. Guru may give map and tools although you have to do it on your own. Guru is not there to deliver you hopium, when you are in need of an instant gratification. Guru is not a drug dealer on a speed dial. Guru in Sanskrit is the one who disperses the darkness although don’t forget that light burns and light blinds also it shows all the mess, if you switch on the light in the messy room.

Majority of people on this planet don’t know how to be free, freedom is not very popular thing on the planet and not many know what freedom is, some say you have to pay rather high price on this planet, so you may be free, on the bright side it is doable. there are those who did it and are doing it…

Maybe you are on the other side, maybe you play messiah game.Saviour personality who tries to save others, a motivation to this might be, saving himself/herself from self although there must be ‘I’ and ‘other’ and if there is no ‘I’ and ‘other’, who is to be saved?

Sometimes saviour wants to be saved he/she expects that somebody will come and save him/her. They may dream that something magical will come in to their life take control and take care of them, also will give the meaning or an aim why live? Saving others might be a meaning of life. Saving others might be selfish action. Why? Because light beings don’t like watch others suffer it is very unpleasant and if you are an empath  you feel others pain and if you are not demonic being you don’t like that unnecessary pain and suffering.

What is the meaning? Life is hard without meaning.

Sometimes you want to fall into somebodies arms and want to be held. It is like falling into arms of Divinity and Divinity holds you and cuddles you. You fear loosing that Divinity that warm feeling and feeling at home. You want to go back home so so badly.

Where is the home?

You feel so disconnected without home like a homeless person cold, lost, uncertain just wandering in the middle of eternity searching for something that was lost. The search was long and you are tired, so when you are going to get home?

You need that anchor that meaning, aim, so you personify that Divinity, so who is Divinity in your life who is the guru? Question is who isn’t your guru or divinity, including yourself? Every being you have met on your path is part of divinity and yes including dark beings although most likely when you get to know them you understand that hanging around dark beings is unpleasant, so you try to avoid their presence. You may want somebody to breath in life into your being, so you would be alive, and dark beings suck a life force out of other beings. Do you know some of those dark beings or one of them is staring at you in the mirror? Like a black hole sucks life force out of you.

How much of Divinity you may experience?

How much light you may let in?

Individual soul enjoys amount of Divinity it has the capacity to receive. Light burns, it also blinds, so it is better to let in light gradually and remove inner blocks bit by bit and on the road to Divinity it is good to have a guide who already have done it. Choose your guide wisely.

Who are you going to follow a shining star or a black hole?

Or you are going to become one of them?

One day you may say I’m home…OM… That day might be NOW….

© Laura Ciciskinaite


Tomorrow doesn’t exist


Autumn, wonderful time of the year, colourful and so soothing, the air is so crisp and fresh. Autumn also known as fall…leaves fall…it seems that nature is dying, well it is not dying, it is changing.

One autumn evening I decided to go and see my friends, swan family that lives in the pond not far away from my home. So I went… When I approached the pond only one swan was there, that was very strange and unusual. I walked around the pond and expected to find second swan although my search was unsuccessful. The only swan that left in the pond was male swan, I looked at him and in my mind asked him; what happened? The answer was go to your meditation place, so I went. Before approaching meditation place there was this feeling that I’ll find black feathers there. When I got to my meditation place, there were at least three black feathers, this is not a good omen. I got overwhelmed with sadness.The other thought that came through my mind was go home and you will find an article on what happened, so I did. The article was rather cold, yeah but what else you can expect from news paper article. It seems that the female swan just disappeared, people who look after the place suspect that it was fox, fox ate the swan. Maybe it was a fox; who knows…

The couple lived together sixteen years, one of them left the body, the other continues exist as a male swan.

Yes, the soul is immortal whether animal or human although body is fragile and it can cease to exist in any moment. Even if you try to cling to the moment it passes by, you desperately try to grasp it but it transforms into something else, sands of time continue to flow and change.

Cherish your embodiment, it is a temple treat it well. If you are postponing things and think you can do things tomorrow, tomorrow might never come for the embodiment. I’m not trying to instil fear, just want to bring awareness, the individuation or the mandala of the embodiment transforms constantly and sometimes it comes to a point when it drops its whole form, structure. Whatever you do right now do it with full awareness. Even if you just drink water or go for a walk make it special because it is special if you put whole attention and awareness into it. If you want to clear your mind go for a walk, clarity of the mind brings you into awareness and you can enjoy the now. Try to do mundane things like; eating, walking with full awareness and see how they become magical.

In my mind I still have a memory of the perfect summer day and magical moment when Sally the swan was still in her embodiment and was swimming in the pond with her cygnets and they were enjoying the perfect moments together and brought joy to people. Animals are good example how to stay in the moment and make the most of it. Be aware notice things around you.

Sally with cygnets 🙂