Species relocation …Saint… Sventoji

The image taken in a small Lithuanian town Sventoji the most accurate translation would be Saint in English. Sventoji is a sea 🌊 side town on a coast of a Baltic Sea. In the picture you may clearly see the seagulls that’s the first thing I have noticed when I reached the town. I was walking from one sea side town Palanga to Sventoji it takes about three hours to go from one town to other. You may walk on the beach which is white sand and you may see pine woods all the way. Very quiet and pleasant walk probably see only few people on the way.

You see the seagulls, so yes back to seagulls few years back seagulls didn’t live in Lithuanian we never had them on the beaches. Suddenly they appear. I was talking to my friends about this and they noticed same thing. One friend said “so, I was hearing this loud sound as if it sounded like baby crying and then I realised it’s a seagull”, she said it was few years back.

Now seagulls live not only at seaside towns they live even in Kaunas my home town and it’s far away from sea. One morning I was drinking tea and looking through the window and I sea seagulls flying by, few years back I never saw them during my tea drinking ceremony.

Seagulls might moved in during lockdown, how they travel to Lithuanian? Oh well they decided to relocate and had a long flight 😀 Maybe sea and sky seemed more blue in Lithuania.

Back to the towns name Sventoji which means female saint from Lithuanian language. I’d like to look more into word Saint, if you look at word saint in Russian language it derives from word light svetoj from word svet which means light. Then if you look at word light in English language it could mean light as in weight not luminescent, light like feather. Also the saying heart light as feather. Maybe seagulls feather. Interesting were thoughts taken me…


…spring in winter season…

spring bloom winter

…when you wake up and Christmas song is in your mind and it drives you crazy,

the Christmas market and the people selling things,

the Christmas lights, the wonderful distraction,

when you know the inner lights much more enchanting…

the lights that change, and people celebrate Christmas the same…

it goes round and round…

the winters weather freezes the body,

Arctic winds, kisses the cheeks,

the frost that decorates morning grass and fallen leaves,

white innocent painter,

it’s cold outside, it’s cold outside,

although ignore the cold,

it feels like spring,

it’s warm inside,

the inner light shines, just like the sun,the inner sun,

the plethora of colours,

it generates the heat,

the flowers bloom even though it’s winter,

it feels like spring and seems the winter is long gone,

what is hot?

what is cold?

just a sensation…

may change the sensation…

the cold becomes the friend and even pleasant,

maybe even a guru…

which reality is more real inner or outer?

which one is a dream?

what is a dream?

if it is experience it is real…physical or not…

maybe it’s not the winter on Lucia day…

the light is back…

and feeling is like kite that is flying high…

and if nobody is holding rope…

where is the limit?

who sets the limit?

you set the limit…

© laura ciciskinaite



Da colours of life & what do you worship Darling?

colours of life flowers

The clouds have gathered, the rain will fall…

At least the birds are waiting, so they may play and splash

In waters of the rain, so much joy that brings.

The freshness and aliveness that the rain brings…

The thunder storm and lightening will clear the air…

The sky is taking photographs and recording perfect moments.

The day of the eclipse, many will remember…

The lightening that cleared the air…

The things became more light, light feather…

The weight was dropped….

The summer and it’s colours,makes the head spin…

This summer is the time of butterflies, bumble bees and lady bugs

The summer heat was kind to to them…

So, many creatures in the park and each enjoys the life in it’s own way,

The bees and butterflies are focused on the flowers,

The dogs are chasing ball,

The flowers draw up to the sun…

What do the humans chase, oh i see a lot of them concerned how to get high?

They chase the highs…

The girls with ton of makeup seeks a perfect mate to mate…

Someone smokes the substance or consumes alcohol…

They seek these childish pleasures to escape…

They indulge in colours of the grey…

That’s  a bit dull don’t you agree?

The spectrum of the life is more colourful than that!

It’s better to be magician of the life and pull the unexpected out of the magic hat,

Explore the colours like a painter does,

Combine the colours and make new ones!

So, what are you focusing on?

You become that which you focus on,

So, focus on highest enlightenment and the light then,

You will be able to explore the colours and the colourless!

So, leave the grey bye bye the grey you are too boring!

Enjoy the colours and the clarity of life!

© laura ciciskinaite



Personified Divinity Messiah Game


Are you having a dilemma what is Divinity?

Does it have a form? Is it formless?

May God become a man?

Do you want to be saved?

Are you being a saviour yourself and play the Messiah game?

Sometimes you feel that there is no help and you fall into despair and helplessness moments and it seems soo dark. The other times you try to save everyone even those who don’t want to be saved, or maybe you will build the whole universe so you may save others.

So, is there any help for the human?

Yes, there is although will you be able to see and recognise the help?

Are you aware and conscious enough to see and hear the Divine?

Divine usually speaks very quietly and it shows itself in many forms, it doesn’t like repetition. Well, it is formless although it takes form. What kind of form? All forms and no form. You may say if God created everything than who created the Devil? You may say the Devil is a Gods beast, the beast which is on the leash and it is allowed to do only the certain amount of havoc. The Devil also may take many shapes and forms it may take God like forms as well, only it spreads suffering, misery, lack, chaos, destruction although it may come in very glamorous form you may think it is good.

‘We can accept God becoming Man to save Man, but not Man becoming God to save himself.’ Vernon Linwood Howard

A lot of humans on this planet want their personal messiah, so somebody would hear them, listen to them, care for them. Hero who would save them from them selves, a hero who would bring salvation. Religions always promise salvation and they say that golden age was in the past and you have to wait for the messiah who will save you in the future. Politicians promise you the great tomorrow , yeah they may give you some treats. The great demagogues always play with your emotions and say that something good was in the past or will happen in the future and they will put this hero in front of the people, so it could be worshipped, like the sun in the morning and it may look bright and significant also it blinds others. People personify Divinity, so they may place their focus somewhere, somewhere positive, just to manage their focus.It is neither good nor bad to have personified Divinity in your life, only at some point you have to drop it or leave  it. At some point you have to leave your guru and become independent. Guru is only a guide it can’t do things for you. Guru may give map and tools although you have to do it on your own. Guru is not there to deliver you hopium, when you are in need of an instant gratification. Guru is not a drug dealer on a speed dial. Guru in Sanskrit is the one who disperses the darkness although don’t forget that light burns and light blinds also it shows all the mess, if you switch on the light in the messy room.

Majority of people on this planet don’t know how to be free, freedom is not very popular thing on the planet and not many know what freedom is, some say you have to pay rather high price on this planet, so you may be free, on the bright side it is doable. there are those who did it and are doing it…

Maybe you are on the other side, maybe you play messiah game.Saviour personality who tries to save others, a motivation to this might be, saving himself/herself from self although there must be ‘I’ and ‘other’ and if there is no ‘I’ and ‘other’, who is to be saved?

Sometimes saviour wants to be saved he/she expects that somebody will come and save him/her. They may dream that something magical will come in to their life take control and take care of them, also will give the meaning or an aim why live? Saving others might be a meaning of life. Saving others might be selfish action. Why? Because light beings don’t like watch others suffer it is very unpleasant and if you are an empath  you feel others pain and if you are not demonic being you don’t like that unnecessary pain and suffering.

What is the meaning? Life is hard without meaning.

Sometimes you want to fall into somebodies arms and want to be held. It is like falling into arms of Divinity and Divinity holds you and cuddles you. You fear loosing that Divinity that warm feeling and feeling at home. You want to go back home so so badly.

Where is the home?

You feel so disconnected without home like a homeless person cold, lost, uncertain just wandering in the middle of eternity searching for something that was lost. The search was long and you are tired, so when you are going to get home?

You need that anchor that meaning, aim, so you personify that Divinity, so who is Divinity in your life who is the guru? Question is who isn’t your guru or divinity, including yourself? Every being you have met on your path is part of divinity and yes including dark beings although most likely when you get to know them you understand that hanging around dark beings is unpleasant, so you try to avoid their presence. You may want somebody to breath in life into your being, so you would be alive, and dark beings suck a life force out of other beings. Do you know some of those dark beings or one of them is staring at you in the mirror? Like a black hole sucks life force out of you.

How much of Divinity you may experience?

How much light you may let in?

Individual soul enjoys amount of Divinity it has the capacity to receive. Light burns, it also blinds, so it is better to let in light gradually and remove inner blocks bit by bit and on the road to Divinity it is good to have a guide who already have done it. Choose your guide wisely.

Who are you going to follow a shining star or a black hole?

Or you are going to become one of them?

One day you may say I’m home…OM… That day might be NOW….

© Laura Ciciskinaite

Christmas lights



Christmas lights are all over the streets during this time of the year Christmas lights seem like magic, something extraordinary and wonderful.As day light is very short Christmas lights are kind of substitute for the day light. Can’t deny, Christmas lights are very amusing, hypnotic, maybe even distracting. Christmas lights also known as fairy lights, before electric lights become popular people use to use candles.

Christmas lights, representation of the stars in the sky or the lights that are within us, light particles. Actually Christmas lights look very similar to light particles, although light particles are much brighter and prettier than electric lights.

Light that illuminates the world. Sunlight illuminates the world during the day also sunlight hides the lights of the stars also have you noticed when the sun is the highest in the sky the colours of the things seem not so bright. Everybody knows the positive side of the light…

Light doesn’t cast a shadow…

Light gives hope to people. Hope is good thing as long as it is not false hope.

Did you notice that light can blind, burn, also things can hide behind the light?


Street lights illuminate the the road but you can’t see the stars in the sky because of the electrical pollution.

Winter time use to be dedicated for hibernation and fasting. Now winter associates with partying overeating, alcohol and consumerism. Shops sell so much stuff during Christmas time. Things in shop windows ‘illuminated’ with the help of electrical lights. Material things represented as Christmas miracle, something very spacial. Whirlpool of electrical lights are so hypnotic…


Almost make you buy things that you don’t need.

Humans on this planet are addicted to consume matter. Consumerism reaches its peak at Christmas time. Humans start behave like hungry ghosts.

Hungry ghost or preta in Buddhism religion these beings are pictured with huge empty stomachs, but they have pinhole mouths, and their necks are so thin they cannot swallow. A preta is one who is always looking outside himself for the new things that will satisfy the craving within, they are driven by intense emotional needs in an animalistic way.

Well, consuming to much matter or stuff most likely not going to fulfil emotional and spiritual needs…

Access the light within, meditate.

As Yoda from Star Wars said ‘Luminous beings are we, not this crude matter’

lights bright

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